[There is a long period of radio silence after this last post, as if he's just... lost for a reply to it. Finally, he settles on:]
I am not sure what I can say about it. I do not wish to defend or try to excuse any of what I did.
At the time, I felt as though having consistent emotions independent of manipulation, was something insignificant. I placed no value on my own mind, and so I saw no problem with changing the minds of others. I worked people so frequently, and had done so for so long...
Being in a place where I controlled nothing frightened me terribly. Now that it is over though... I barely understand how you can stand to speak to me.
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I am not sure what I can say about it. I do not wish to defend or try to excuse any of what I did.
At the time, I felt as though having consistent emotions independent of manipulation, was something insignificant. I placed no value on my own mind, and so I saw no problem with changing the minds of others. I worked people so frequently, and had done so for so long...
Being in a place where I controlled nothing frightened me terribly. Now that it is over though... I barely understand how you can stand to speak to me.