[Daneca purses her lips. She thinks about looking at Cassel, but she doesn't. She still can't.]
I-I don't know how many people know outside of you and Scott right now, but I can't ask you to lie for me or to cover it up for me, Cassel.
[But God, does she wish that she could.]
[Daneca draws her knees up to her chest, wrapping her arms around them. Right now, she wishes she could just outright evaporate as an alternative.]
I can't even ask for your help with Scott. I can't ask anything out of you because this is my mess and I have to deal with it. But I just...
[She trails off, shaking her head. She closes her eyes, resting her forehead on her knees.]
[Daneca doesn't know where she was headed with that sentence. Maybe she was going to say she wished it didn't have to come out like this or that she could take it back and undo what she did to Scott. Maybe she was going to say she's terrified and feels alone and so unhappy. Maybe she was just going to say she feels lost. Maybe she was going to say she shouldn't feel like this at all, but can't stop it anyway.]
[She doesn't know what she was going to say anymore because already the tears of her frustration and her guilt have come forth. And she just feels even smaller for crying like this because she's supposed to have it together. She knew what she was getting into when she signed up for this and she knew changing something like this would come at a hefty price. Daneca has all the reasons and none of right ones to start bawling her eyes out in front of Cassel, but the tears are almost as uncontrollable as the ones she had through the blowback with Scott which just gives them even more power over her in the moment.]
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[Daneca purses her lips. She thinks about looking at Cassel, but she doesn't. She still can't.]
I-I don't know how many people know outside of you and Scott right now, but I can't ask you to lie for me or to cover it up for me, Cassel.
[But God, does she wish that she could.]
[Daneca draws her knees up to her chest, wrapping her arms around them. Right now, she wishes she could just outright evaporate as an alternative.]
I can't even ask for your help with Scott. I can't ask anything out of you because this is my mess and I have to deal with it. But I just...
[She trails off, shaking her head. She closes her eyes, resting her forehead on her knees.]
[Daneca doesn't know where she was headed with that sentence. Maybe she was going to say she wished it didn't have to come out like this or that she could take it back and undo what she did to Scott. Maybe she was going to say she's terrified and feels alone and so unhappy. Maybe she was just going to say she feels lost. Maybe she was going to say she shouldn't feel like this at all, but can't stop it anyway.]
[She doesn't know what she was going to say anymore because already the tears of her frustration and her guilt have come forth. And she just feels even smaller for crying like this because she's supposed to have it together. She knew what she was getting into when she signed up for this and she knew changing something like this would come at a hefty price. Daneca has all the reasons and none of right ones to start bawling her eyes out in front of Cassel, but the tears are almost as uncontrollable as the ones she had through the blowback with Scott which just gives them even more power over her in the moment.]