[Daneca figured as much. Well, not the part about how Cassel felt about Barron. She didn't know about that until just a few minutes ago. But it figures they don't understand if they never actually got the chance to know him outside the way Cassel did. She'd probably hate him, too.]
The blowback really sucks. [She looks down at her hands.] I know it's not as bad as what you go through. I don't know how you stand that. But it still sucks. It just...
[How to put it?]
It just feels like someone else is calling the shots. You want to get a grip because you know what's happening, but you can't and you're just stuck on this really, really crappy ride. You just keep moving from crying to laughing to wanting to break everything in the room on the turn of a dime.
It's worse when you're with another person. Because everything they're doing is magnified by a thousand and your reactions by a million. And there's nothing you can do to stop it and you can't really explain it in a way they understand. [She glances up at Cassel.] Not that they should have to understand. But you want them to.
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The blowback really sucks. [She looks down at her hands.] I know it's not as bad as what you go through. I don't know how you stand that. But it still sucks. It just...
[How to put it?]
It just feels like someone else is calling the shots. You want to get a grip because you know what's happening, but you can't and you're just stuck on this really, really crappy ride. You just keep moving from crying to laughing to wanting to break everything in the room on the turn of a dime.
It's worse when you're with another person. Because everything they're doing is magnified by a thousand and your reactions by a million. And there's nothing you can do to stop it and you can't really explain it in a way they understand. [She glances up at Cassel.] Not that they should have to understand. But you want them to.