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[advocacy]

spam - scott.
[Daneca sits in her room for a while, repeatedly closing her eyes. She keeps hoping that every time she does, the thoughts and memories swirling around in her head will stop and every time she opens them again, she hopes they just completely blip out of existence.]

[But unfortunately, what she's thinking and feeling can't be so easily wished away.]

[On the one hand, she can still feel those distant pangs for Barron. The butterflies she felt in his presence mixed with that sense of calm and security where she no longer had to fear what she was sits firmly in the back of her mind. On top of that, she can still feel the loss. The grief she felt--that other Daneca on that other Barge--is so much deeper than what she felt when she found out the truth of what he did to Cassel. She also feels guilt over feeling any of that, over feeling the way she does about Sam, even about Cassel.]

[But even worse is knowing what she did to Scott.]

[She doesn't know how he's handling the idea of her being an emotion worker. Maybe he's as angry as Sam was when he found out she was without hearing it from her directly. Maybe he's furious about her working him at all. Daneca wouldn't blame him if he were; he would be if the situation were reversed. She doesn't go to Scott out of fear of his potential anger though. She's more concerned that he may still be worked or confused.]

[She's also aware that her secret wasn't the only one put out there for people to figure out or learn.]

[She knocks on his door and waits anxiously outside.]

voice.
So that was a flood, right? I read about them over the network, but I never expected it to be... [Her voice fades a little.] ...Like that.

This might seem like a really stupid question, but how do most of you recover from something like that?

Comments

[secretasshole]

That was more similar to a breach than a flood.

[advocacy]

[Her voice is soft because that's not really the part she would need/want responding to, sadly.]

Oh. Sorry. I'm still... I'm still pretty new.

[secretasshole]

Apologies aren't necessary.

One of the others would more likely be better suited to answer your more emotional needs.

[advocacy]

I didn't expect that you would or anything like that.

[secretasshole]

Well, they aren't exactly my area of expertise.

[advocacy]

May I ask why not?

[secretasshole]

Because I have a much more limited capacity to feel than my human counterparts.

[And he will just quietly (and sort of unfairly) resent that you assumed he wasn't trying to help when he actually was. Progress is difficult. B(]

[advocacy]

You're not human?

[secretasshole]

No. I am a robot.

[advocacy]

A ro--oh.

Sorry. I've never talked to a robot before let alone one advanced enough to talk back.

[secretasshole]

You don't have to apologize.

[advocacy]

Do you never get offended?

[secretasshole]

I do. Quite often, actually, but not about people admitting they're new to the Barge and have never communicated with a robot before.

[advocacy]

You'll tell me if I ever offend you, right?

[secretasshole]

Of course.

[advocacy]

I'm Daneca, by the way.

[secretasshole]

David.

[advocacy]

It's nice to meet you.

[secretasshole]

Likewise.