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[advocacy]

spam - scott.
[Daneca sits in her room for a while, repeatedly closing her eyes. She keeps hoping that every time she does, the thoughts and memories swirling around in her head will stop and every time she opens them again, she hopes they just completely blip out of existence.]

[But unfortunately, what she's thinking and feeling can't be so easily wished away.]

[On the one hand, she can still feel those distant pangs for Barron. The butterflies she felt in his presence mixed with that sense of calm and security where she no longer had to fear what she was sits firmly in the back of her mind. On top of that, she can still feel the loss. The grief she felt--that other Daneca on that other Barge--is so much deeper than what she felt when she found out the truth of what he did to Cassel. She also feels guilt over feeling any of that, over feeling the way she does about Sam, even about Cassel.]

[But even worse is knowing what she did to Scott.]

[She doesn't know how he's handling the idea of her being an emotion worker. Maybe he's as angry as Sam was when he found out she was without hearing it from her directly. Maybe he's furious about her working him at all. Daneca wouldn't blame him if he were; he would be if the situation were reversed. She doesn't go to Scott out of fear of his potential anger though. She's more concerned that he may still be worked or confused.]

[She's also aware that her secret wasn't the only one put out there for people to figure out or learn.]

[She knocks on his door and waits anxiously outside.]

voice.
So that was a flood, right? I read about them over the network, but I never expected it to be... [Her voice fades a little.] ...Like that.

This might seem like a really stupid question, but how do most of you recover from something like that?

Comments

[megamind]

It's okay. You're new. Scott got pretty harshly hazed his first few weeks here. It takes adjusting to... and I won't lie, it can be hard and dangerous to both inmates and wardens.

A good support structure is very necessary on the barge.

[advocacy]

It'd seem so.

I don't think I can really figure out if I want to be alone right now or not though.

[megamind]

If you need to be, take some down time. Watch a movie, read a book, listen to music. Work on a project if you're inclined. If you need people, find someone else who does and do some mutual shoring up.

Zev-- she was a warden here, but she's gone now-- would tell you to treat yourself right, love yourself and anyone else who you thought needed it, and the rest would follow.

She was often right.


[ For the first time since Silent Hill, Zev's loss doesn't bring the twisting hurt. This time, Megamind is grateful that she's gone. That she wasn't one the mirror barge. ]

[advocacy]

That's... That's actually really good advice.

[It's hard for Daneca to remember that right now because she feels both so low and so hollow all at the same time. But she knows he's right.]

Thank you.

[megamind]

No problem. Been here fifteen months, might as well do something with what I've learned, right?

I'd offer you the comfort of mindless video games and good company if you need it, but, uh. Someone else has dibs on my time for similar reasons.

[advocacy]

[There's a small attempt at a smile in her voice:]

I appreciate the thought all the same. I hope it helps whoever's taking you up on it.

[megamind]

It will be very good for both of us. It's what we need. Reaffirmation, affection, all that good stuff. Sometime times it's all you can do, to keep going.

[ If a text could convey just how ridiculously smitten he was... ]

[advocacy]

It's a solid back-up plan in case of any emergency.

[megamind]

And since he just poured some good tea, I ought let him get back to taking care of me. Good luck with your dilemmas, and I hope what I was was helpful.